we are happy people......

devon was having a moment today because i told him that he could invite his friends over that live in our building. his friends were not home and he came back to the house crying because he could not play. i tried to tell him that he needs to not be upset about his friends and find something to do that makes him happy. he was not listening and all i could think to tell him is that he is a happy person and needs to find something to be happy about. i wish that it was that easy. i mean my life is easy or should i say happy. it is very easy to get caught up in negativity but it is just as easy to get caught up in the positive. i was a little down today and it has been hard for me to shake it. i don't understand the path at times but i really do try and have a zen like attitude. i know that there is a purpose to everything and while i may not understand a situation it does not mean that it should not be. for me it really has been a time that i am seeking understanding but the answers have not come. i want to believe that a guy that i met is being honest about his life being too busy right now but the part of me that does not trust finds it hard to believe. i want to believe that although one of my best friends is going to remain a fixture in my life but it seems that we are going through phase that is going to test and hopefully strengthen our friendship. then there i was lucky enough to meet someone that i seemed to hit it off but the twist to it is that they were leaving in four days to move back home. i just don't understand. i really just hope that i am able to meet people who are as genuine and honest as i am.